> a visit to Malaysia national autistic center. 1 mac 2011
whoa~it was an experience i wont forget..because, believe me or not, i did manage to dwell with my fear and panicness haha..there are so many things to tell, ouh excitednye nk bercerita! ouh! ouh! *tergedik2 macam ecah* ok, so it was actually an event organized by our faculty (the language fac) to support the kasih sayang 1 msia campaign, so me n couple of friends decided to join it, thanx to deary efy n iza for inviting us to join.. but sadly efy wasnt there on the visit day :( so, on the visit day which is tuesday, 5 of us: me, eca, paan, mad n iza woke up very early, i mean VERY early to catch the bus that they said will be off as early as 7 in the morning..with our black apparel (due to d reason that bright colour might tense the autistic), we waited in the faculty's lobby and wait for the EARLY bus to come and fetch us.. at EARLY about 7.30 a.m it arrived and we had our journey with an absolute calmness..*imagine urself in a bathtub having your milk bath while listening to Bach music..yeahh~ thats the calm im talkin about
then at about an hour later we reached the place, the bus parked in front of the autistic center but we had to walk to their hostel first for the morning activity. so, we walked there feeling calm..*Bach music
nahh, 5 mins later we were there..all of us stood infont of the hostel's gate since we werent allowed to get in yet..there was an absolute calm in me since its morning n for god's sake im doing charity ok~like charity~*cut it off bitch!
about 20mins standing outside their authority we were allowed to enter and do our preparation for the activities planned. so, we got in and made ourselves at home when suddenly one of the autistic came out. she's kinda chubby, a teenager, and wore their uniform. ok, i can see that the calmness is getting thinner in me. but i thought "lekla sorang je die takkan menyerang punye"..one of the instructors brought her closer to us, well frankly it didnt give me any comfort at all.the instructor askd us to greet her and shake her hand and be friendly while as for me i wouldnt go even close to her.. i was staying in my seat and ignored the situation while taking off my RED socks.*bright colour will tense them, remember?
ok, the autistic girl now had gone. she ws inside their living room with the instructor..relieve, that's all i can say. then, another suddenly, about 20 more of them appeared from nowhere.they were all grown ups like us but act weirdly, i was quickly standing and positioning myself in the best position i could find..i stood beside, infront, and back of other normal people, feeling insecure..i hold sapikot's hand nearly all the time and tried to avoid the autistic as hard as i could..some of them were running while screaming hysterically, clapping abnormally, mumbling their words while walking here and there uncontrollably.*now imagine ur in a war while the enemy put on a war music, no more Bach
but, maddy manged to get 1 autistic girl name Raihan..shes totally sweet and pretty. its just that she cant talk properly or even respond to her surroundings properly.thats all. if shes normal, she'll b one hot chick in Klang Valley ya know! she seemed pretty and calm n not aggressive so i dare to touch her, well she ws ok. but there were still others who looked terrifying to me..then, the director of the program, ajue askd every participants to take at least one autistic with us (meaning, we'll be their instructors for that day) well, im in a war field, still.and im about to be dead.
to be looked like ive taken someone, i ws staying near to maddy n paan all the time since they got the pretty non-aggressive Raihan with them, the others didnt look like Raihan at all..while iza n pika were also trying to approach one of the autistic to be their gundiks, i was wandering and following anyone i see and pretending like i am taking someone to look after. *punyelah penakut nauzubillah!
then, we had our morning work out. my eyes were everywhere cautious that some of them might attack me. iza already had her gundik name tek chun where mad n paan had Raihan, i ws searching for someone normal or atleast look a bit normal to be taken. however, no one met my requirement, means no gundik for me..yey!!
haf an hour later, all of us were asked to have our breakfast..not hungry..as for me..home..was what i ws thinking about. my other friends were accompanying their gundiks for breakfast and i decided to sneak out from the room and get fresh air where no autistic running and jumping..now, i feel peace back..*relieve
so while waiting for the others to finish their breakfast, i ws chatting and giving my self some time from the awkwardness. then fariz came out and brought his gundik with him, this one is quite big and wide but hey, he wasnt aggressive either..so i went close to them, try to talk to him *the autistic lah takkan fariz pulak*. he wasnt respond but he ws staying calm and under control..i dont feel fear the most important thing, and that was a good sign :)
next, we were assigned to do the mural activity where we got to paint n draw with those special people. i sat in a circle together with maddy,paan n raihan, eca n iza with tek chun..tek chun, this one didnt seem dangerous too.but he loves to jump, i startd to analyze them and found out that each one of them has their own types of habits or things or actions that they will do repeatedly. like Raihan, she used to talk to herself in her own language while playing with her hair like paris hilton's "that's hot", while tek chun loves to jump, walk, and tidying things up.he doesnt like mess.interesting isnt it? so i startd to communicate with them and put myself in a comfort area..no more harmful sense of feeling. *the Bach music begin to play once more.....
in the next hours, we were moving to their nurturing center and doing other activities such as making origami papers and etc. now, everything seems to be under control and just fine. i didnt feel any fear no more and i can put my self comfortably everywhere even when i ws surrounded by those special people. they are special u know..at some point they are adorable..
at about 2 pm, we finished our activities and prepared for our journey back to UITM..well, ironically it felt quite reluctant to say goodbye to them especially Raihan and Tek Chun since we were kinda getting close and knowing them well. the most important thing is, they dont attack or bite..absolutely not.
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| Bfore the war started =p |
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| its Raihan in the blue uniform, i told u shes cute ;) l-r: paan,me,eca,mady,lil raihan,iza |
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| this is the youngest student in the center which is 14 years old, since hes d youngest, he likes to b pampered like a baby, its kinda funny looking at how people ntertain him XD |
The best part is, im totally freaking out when they (the autistic) came out at first..they look very harmful and unrealistic to be close with. yet, at the end i was feeling a total peaceful where i realized my eyes had fooled me..they are special..even now while im writing this i feel peace~~*sinking myself in the bathtub with ferrero roche music on, yeah that's the peace im talking about.......
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| thanx for the great xperience guys ;> |
